Tuesday, March 23, 2004
So i went to the bookstore today. i was actually feeling reallly shitty both physically and mentally. i went to the photography section to fish out some big books with huge picture layouts of animals and nature, something beautiful to look at. I found a corner by the window at the front of the store to sit at, wedging myself into it so as to be comfortably propped up. I was flipping through the pages and i looked up. A rather attractive person was sitting away away leaning against a book shelf and our eyes met suddenly, but i looked away being who i am. a few minutes later it happened again. I kept getting in to the picture and then looking up and he would too. rather awkward, finally one time i actually smiled. He looked at me for a second or too and smiled also. i went back to my book after that and we continued the awkward glances. i was quite enjoying myself considering i had never done much of the sort and had no idea of what the hell i was doing. but oh well i had to leave and that was that. now im all washed up and sad liek i was before...the pictures only made it worse, things being torn to shreds by white fangs and other being cuddle by giant paws, some loping along under a thunderous sky. oh gosh where am i in this world...i dont fit into either place.
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