Brains!

Monday
RF ordered me business cards. I’ve never had a business card. I’ve always loved our business cards, they’re quite lovely, done up in the studios pretty font with the tree of life on one side. Mine says “Office Manager Extraordinaire.” I really love my job and the women I work with.

Thursday
The last few days have been good ones, perhaps a promising start to the New Year. This morning and every morning this week I have watched the sun come up from our dining room window, which is where we keep our computers. I burn a little sage to set the energy for the day; the cats are fascinated by the low-lying smoke. I had my second Ayurvedic consultation with RF since it's the middle of the Vata season. I added just one more herb to my daily routine to see about healing my large intestine. The licorice was causing some major issues, which set off the alarm that I'm still not digesting properly. We've also moved my lunch earlier since I was eating after Pitta time. I'm backing off of the Vitamin D as the days start to grow ever slow slightly and soon I'll be using Kapha oil instead of Vata in the shower. We talked about my skin and how my acne apparently too much pitta in the skin. We're going to try some simple remedies before going all out on the Life Spa skin care line. At the moment, I shall only wash my face with warm water and no soap and afterward I will apply a tiny amount of high quality coconut oil. I didn't have to buy anything as I already have Dr. Bronner's coconut oil in my pantry for cooking fruit.
I have to say there is something to be said for all this Ayurveda and health consciousness, I still have not gotten the flu or cold this season KNOCK ON WOOD.

Saturday
Good tip, if you have severe winter skin try rubbing a tiny amount of coconut oil in to your skin after you soap up and rinse in the shower. Then rinse the excess away. It's the most luxurious feeling in the world. Actually this is called Abhyanga in Ayurveda, and is traditionally done with herb infused oil, which is what I mean by Vata oil. I’m just cutting mine with some coconut oil for extra moisture. Coconut oil is a wonderful way to heal skin issues. Although my face still has the acne, it’s less irritated – less red. It feels softer and more moisturized without feeling dry or oily. We shall see how things go.
This was the first year I wasn’t picked first round Elite. If I don’t get my badge this year I won’t get a golden badge next year. Sad times! Here’s hoping for a second round pick.

Sunday
Last night I wasn't having a good night. I ended up having a good old-fashioned cry session. Something I haven't done in probably a year and something I should probably do more often, as I think it's the best way to release tension. Also I'm not very good at crying, not very good at letting go of any emotions - thanks British parents. It wasn’t about anything really particular at the start, which I’ve found is usually my pattern, I have to just force stuff out and then I can put some meaning to all the feelings I have. It’s not the best way to communicate but at least I am communicating. Drack came home and we had a long talk. He’s really the best person I know, well to me he’s everything. Bless his patience for I had a hard time getting to the point. I don’t have enough challenges in my life. I don’t have hobbies and I don’t have true deep friends that I have access to on a daily basis. It’s sounds silly, but at the same time it’s a pretty grim thing to accept about oneself. It sounds like an easy fix, but I feel like if that were so I wouldn’t be without these things in the first place. I suppose writing is hobby. I read occasionally. I cook. But none of these things makes my brain work, or my body. Drack says “I truly believe to be complete one needs a solid body, mind and soul”. He’s right. I really lucked out with this one. Ayurveda is helping to create a solid body, but I need to add the physical. My mind needs to be filled with more than just work challenges, and my soul needs to have more soul mates. Dear 2012, let this be a truly new year.