Brains!

I'm having a hard time feeling like I actually went anywhere but I actually just went out of town for a whole weekend. I think when you travel and you don't really connect fully, or become grounded with your surroundings, it's hard to feel like you really went anywhere when you come home. I travel so little that when I do leave I sort of expect a lot and when nothing really happens, upon my return I question whether I really left at all and whether being this tired was worth it. Some vacations really stay with you, so much so that smells from that place or songs you listened to on that trip, can remind you of that place and that memory can be so over whelming it can make your heart ache. I suppose it depends on the context of the trip and the content, the purpose of your being there.

I've been to only one wedding as anything other than a child, I was 16 and it was my sister's wedding. My point is, I don't know what to expect, or how to act, or what to say. What I've made up in my head is accurate for the most part, but in the end I really realize how silly some stuff about weddings really are. I mean I'm talking about the minor details you don't see on pinterest or in the movies, I mean anyone in their right mind would just elope and possibly, possibly have a party after, a very small party. I'm not saying people shouldn't get married, in fact I think the wedding we went to was executed well for the most part, as far as food and venue choice. I mean I personally would not have picked it but I can see why they did. I think they kept it as simple as they possibly could actually, a few flower arrangements some nice votives...simple food, simple ceremony. I really think that's the way to go. You end up not even spending much time with the guests, and all the guests really care about is eating and drinking and dancing and that's probably what you should worry about the most. No one cares about cute little knickknacks on every table, or special fancy plates, I'm not saying they won't add to the atmosphere and be aesthetically pleasing and a lot of people do enjoy that sort of thing, an eat with your eyes sort of philosophy, but in the end it's just more stuff you have to worry about. That sort of stuff can stress you out and take you away from the whole point of what you're doing in the first place. I think that's what made me so adverse to weddings and marriage...it can be such a farce, in-genuine and a waste of time. But if they're done right...they can really be just another amazing party with a theme, just instead of Halloween masks or ugly sweaters there are rings and vows (hopefully short and sweet).