Brains!

well its been a while, yes it has. i am currently counting the hours and minutes till LOTR TROTK hmm 3 hours and 45 mins! eep! exciting. I find it strange that i am reading harry potter while i wait, but what the hey! i took my sister to the airport today. coming home to an empty house that was quiet was a little strange but i soon felt as if she had never come and that was sad. yet she is the most judgemental person i have ever met, adn its no wonder she cant keep to a single beat. always upping and going and rather impulsive in a sometimes destructive way. but she is my sister and its family so i do love her. I am trying to ignore teh biting hound of sadness. I am done with playing with it. the vile creature only makes me hate myself. but i havent stopped hating myself. infact i see nothing there at all. but oh well its too boring to talk about. i am always talking about it. i do wonder what i will be doing, what my friends will be doing this time next year.