Brains!

I feel like i have been cold this past month or two. Being home is nice. I have been here long enough to feel like it is my home. but maybe another four months away will make me feel like it is not again. This break has really been the close to a crazy year. i mean this time last year i didnt know where the hell i was gonna be today. and then i went to school and met some poeple and learned somethings. not just academic but some really true human things. I read some wonderful books and saw some brilliant movies. They had to have made me different in some ways i believe. There were some horrible things that happened around the world and at home, and it was horror for so many people. but yesterday i went to the beach and watched the latest storm coming swallowing up the sun. i thought about the adbusters quote. this is the place where immensity and infinity meet and never seperate. i couldnt help but feeling this fine ribbon wrapping itself around me. there is so much beauty in this world. i see it in everything. in my friends new and old and random things that have happened to me. i dont even have much to say about it, except that its something i think i have started looking for more and more this past year. i want everything to mean something, everything to have a reason and a part in making something beautiful. i wish more people could see it, could see meaning in everything. things happen for a reason. knowing this keeps me really sane. the insane part is wondring what the reason is, what will something mean in the future?