Brains!

It's that week before. Crazy week. I can't sleep, I get fat, my skin explodes. I get anxious and irritable about nothing...stupid nothing. Two weeks of shit, then only two weeks of okay, no wonder girls are nuts.

I've been meaning to write for a while. I keep sitting down to scribble, or type and nothing comes, but I have so much to say. I kinda just skipped over Trona, and writing about that, although you can figure out enough in my yelp reviews. Plus I've written too much about that wonderful 14 highway and desert.

During this weeks 'rain storm', or rain storm by Southern California standards my heart ached. I though about all the October sunsets up North. The best time of year in Humboldt. I pulled out my fall gear. My sherpa hat, the only thing not ragged. I'm finally retiring my blue and brown ski coat, I used as my rain slicker. It's had it. My hiking boots sit unused, and would probably give me blisters now. I wear leather boots and tight jeans these days...what is LA doing to me?

The more I work with these people the stupider I get, I swear. But thank god for a job that goes so quickly. The weekends come fast, and then I'm up in Simi. During the week I don't have time to think too much, which keeps me steady emotionally. This weekend should be interesting to say the least. Now this is one of the things I have a lot to say, but am not writing because I don't think I'm ready to share with the general public. It's not a 'proper' thing. It's taboo. But I've learned a lot about myself the past week. I can only imagine how I'll feel after Saturday night. But I'm excited to see if something wakes up inside me. Forgotten things that I don't even think I'm capable of anymore. It's stuff I didn't really anticipate going into this.