Brains!

I wrote what I wrote yesterday because at the time it seemed like the right medium. Perhaps it wasn't. What I wrote ended up being more of a teenage diary spill, but I guess I needed to organize my memories, and that's just how it came out is all. I wasn't particularly upset, maybe I got more so as I was writing and remembering. But by the end, and later in the afternoon, I realized it didn't really matter. I mean in the long run its always between me and Jordan. I guess the point of the matter is, don't just tell me whatever it is you have to say. He's in the relationship too, why is it all up to me? But you can't tell people that. I mean how does one bring that up in a conversation? So ultimately the post was just a release.

And really in the end, I've ether grown grossly used to the way things are, or I don't even care anymore, or they don't bother me anymore, or I've let go, or they've gotten better, or they were never issues to begin with...so really in the end what the outside world says is what they say and only that. Opinions I guess. Perspectives that they are entitled to.

I guess for me, at this time, I'm here and this is where I am going to be. I don't really have anything else to say, positive or negative, simply this is where I'm at right now.