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My blog could be considered a dangerous thing. I don't think it is. Everything I write is completely honest. Some posts are commentary, some posts are stories, some are boring, some are fun. Most often it's a window into the part of my subconscious that cannot be communicated verbally. It's meant to be the place I spill, organize and store my abstract hidden things. You can really access a lot about me through the blog, and it's partially there for that purpose. To find out the things I cannot say, and don't necessarily need to be said. But its also a tool for me, the process of writing/blogging is therapy in some sense. However, there's a lot missing. To read it, and to think that it is all of me, would be very wrong. That's why it can be misleading. A lot of people read it, and they misinterpret. No one really knows what I actually mean by a lot of the things I say, and that's not my problem. Like I said, its only there partially for the purpose of letting people into that part of me, the rest is there for me, for my subconscious to come out. To take it literally would be a dangerous thing for the reader.

Important Pieces

In that space where infinity above meets immensity below we see the first sign of a new dawn. Dark always gives way to light; for a brief moment nothing is forbidden, everything is possible. But what would we do if the light never came? Maybe we would lie down. Maybe we could go back to sleep. Maybe we could wake up. - Adbusters

The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere; they’re in each other all along. - Jelaluddin Rumi (1207-1273)

Adopt the pace of nature: Her secret is patience. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"The poet Rilke was afraid that if he got rid of his demons, he would lose his angels as well. Of course the danger of clinging to our demons to save our angels is that our demons may well take over." - Tim Farrington

Amnesia is not knowing who one is and wanting desperately to find out. Euphoria is not knowing who one is and not caring. Ecstasy is knowing exactly who one is-and still not caring.
- Tom Robbins

Can't stay awake...guh.

I feel like I'm jet lagged. The sudden shift is great ultimately...but totally shifted everything I did before. No more yelps. I come home take the dog for a walk, watch TV, then I dread the rest of the night.

I can hardly make it past 8 pm. I fall asleep for like an hour...and wake up, when I do, I end up laying in bed staring at the ceiling having mini anxiety attacks till like 3. Then I'm off and on awake asleep till 5, then I'm dead asleep, then alarm at 630. My heaviest sleep is in the morning when I have to wake up.

I'm supposed to be happy. You know I did the math, I'll be making the same amount that I make at the park. The only thing that's better is that it's reliable. But the work is no less mind numbing. I need to go back to school. I'm turning in to those people, who's work is separate from your actual life because you hate it so much. But also the idea of my work and my life being so mushed together doesn't sound appealing either. I guess if it were something...something I felt natural doing...meh. I don't know, I have a massive migraine that's making me dizzy and my thoughts too.

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Friday, July 17, 2009

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