Brains!

OKay, I want to apologize, I keep writing weird single sentences here and not explaining them. Mostly because I can't or I literally don't have the time. I guess I'm sort of going through a non-writing phase for the moment.

A lot of negative crap has happened to me in the last two weeks. You know how when one thing goes wrong, everything starts to crumble around it too? I narrowly missed layoffs at work for the second time, but my hours were cut in half. My dog cannot stand up, let alone walk. I narrowly missed being sandwiched between a motorcycle that t-boned an SUV, by about two steps. A couple people who were recently back in my life, have now detached me from me again, because I couldn't provide what they needed or wanted. I'm losing contact with extremely important people, to all of you I really love you, I do.

However, despite all this, and moments of sadness, I actually don't feel that negative. It's more like all this negative stuff is happening, to a happy person. I want everyone to know that despite the difficulties, momentary stalls and relapses I actually don't feel like the world is out to get me or something. Shit happens, you deal with it, nothing is ever as bad as it seems, and there is a lot to be happy and thankful for. A lot to look forward to, to be excited about. I guess the worst comes out on my blog because well there's no where else it's coming out now.

Again I feel different everyday, I change from moment to moment, but I'm pretty solid in my new foundations. Sometimes I am the rock, sometimes I am the ship and sometimes I am the water.