Brains!

I don't even know. What is going on... I suppose it was the way I expected it to be, which doesn't really line up with the way I want it to be. But I remember back in the day is said the same thing about the previous times. So really I don't think I can do anything with out complaining about it. Things won't ever be perfect. And after all of that, there really wasn't anything negative, just things I wanted that were missing. On his end, he was the same, or all the things he said he was feeling held true, just those things are not intense, don't create the type of feeling I am looking for in myself. I'll be back next weekend, but I'm still going to feel unsettled in my chest.