Brains!

I am still bothered my uncertain future, and my lack of security financially, but I've been spending a lot more time easing myself in to hard core work at school, so that hopefully by the end, nothing will have piled up too drastically. I think I'll come through okay, we shall see.

Today I missed Jordan a lot more then usual. I'm not sure why. It's so strange talking to him on vent, because the image I have associated with him, is one that I created before I met him in real life, so oddly enough I feel like I'm in love with two people, which is ultimately okay in this situation, because it's the same person. I don't know how confusing that may have sounded, but I assure you I only mean that as a whole, anything related to Jordan, I miss. In all the empty in between times today, I pondered what was supposed to fill these moments up. Oh yeah a boy friend, and mine is too faraway for the time being. So QQ and all that.

Anyway I don't really have much to report except that I am excited and stressed for upcoming things in my life. I only hope I can keep my head up.