Brains!

Good enough for what?
For anyone
I’m eccentric and too emotional and that scares people
I make them tense
And people think I am seriously incapable of taking care of myself
And that I am spastic and space out because I’m mentally unstable
And it’s probably true
But the fact that he left me because of that, makes me believe I am way too much to handle and I’ll never get the protection I want
In the end I guess this is what makes me believe that a relationship could never work for me, even though I felt the greatest and most stable I have ever felt in one
That’s why I have no desire, for any sort of contact with anyone right now physical or emotional
I wish I meant something to someone
Or that I did at sometime and that I understood why they stopped
That people would stop lying and just be open and tell the blunt truth for once
I’m just a mess
I’m scared of what ill be like later in life
I think ill end up like my sister
I’m frustrated and confused and sad
Most of all I’m just frightened