Brains!

I don't know if I'm more hurt because he didn't take advantage of the things I had to offer, like supporting someone through their darkest moments. Or that he maybe still a liar. Or maybe he just stopped loving me. I really think he doesn't care at all about me, at this point I just can't see it any other way. I feel even more disrespected. I'm still not worth enough to him to apologoize to my face. That's all I really want, I need closure.

It's not fair, that he gets to go off and start a new life, and no one will know about his past. He can ignore it, there won't be any more triggers for him. I don't wish his life to be of suffering, that's the worst part. Everyone wants him to be lonely and sad, I want him to be the better person, and grow. Now if he does that, he'll be gone and someone else will get the better Jordan, and I'll be stuck with memories of what could have been, what he did to me, and what is going to happen to me now because of his choices. It's not fair.