Brains!

you cannot love others, and others cannot love you, if you do not love yourself first.

i'm doing laundry, and still cannot put anything in the dresser drawer where Jordan's things used to be.

there are triggers everywhere.

i know it wouldn't have lasted now, and that this is the best thing for both of us , but it's horrible. its horrible to be dropped no matter the circumstances. i only feel relatively peaceful for about 20 minutes before it all comes back in some way, usually its with tears.