Brains!

The world is a very hard place.

I had to get out of my house because I thought I might tip over into a panic attack. In my dark moments I feel like someone is in my chest holding on to my heart again. I can hardly breathe or follow thoughts to clear endings. Mum took me to a cafe, I was pleasantly surprised to receive a free sample of European style hot chocolate, something I have been looking for in LA for a year now. Sipping it down, I was thinking things could be a lot worse, when I looked across the street at an open parking space, with the side walk beyond. I observed two gigantic black crows literally pecking a small bird to death on the concrete. The poor thing flapped up and down, but clearly could no longer fly. It just flopped pathetically while the crows cawed, and continued impaling the little bird. Some other smaller birds of the same species were diving in to the crows, trying to scare them off, but to no avail. Others hopped around chirping frantically, flapping their little wings. But they could only watch as their fellow was murdered in the blazing sunshine. It went on for a minute at least. I didn't know what to do, I sat there frozen just watching...suddenly an Audi pulled into the spot, and I have no idea if the little bird died there, or if it some how limped away, but the crows flew off to who knows where.